20!

I'll be 20 years old in a few hours and this last year was kind of tough year for me. I've struggled with a lot of things and thoughts, but right now I'm in a much better place. I can't say that I completely accept myself as I am or that I'm completely happy, but I'm getting there. Slow and steady.

So, on the 20th year of my life I plan to do 20 things:

1. Accept myself for who I am.
2. Smile more.
3. Laugh more.
4. Dance more.
5. Be more confident.
6. Stop caring what other people think about me.
7. Listen to good music.
8. Read good books.
9. Make new friends.
10. Have adventures.
11. Go to concerts.
12. Learn new things.
13. Stop being scared about making mistakes.
14.Stop overthinking about stuff.
15. Work out a little.
16. Love myself before expecting anyone else to love me.
17. Be more nice to people.
18. Capture important moments from my life.
19. Make beautiful memories.
20. Enjoy life.

This year I'll try to stay POSITIVE no matter what and my advice to you is to do the same. Stay positive and think positive and positive things will happen to you. See every struggle as a lesson that you learn from. Take evey opportunity that appears in your way. Fight for your dreams and don't settle for less then you deserve. But the most important thing is: don't let anyone tell you what you can or can't do or how much you are worth.

You are worth it. We're all here because we are worth it. Because we are meant to do something important on Earth. It might be small or it might be big, but nonetheless IMPORTANT!


Alex D.

J.B. Mania

No, I'm not talking about Justin Bieber, I'm talking about effin JAMES BLUNT!!!

I was one of the lucky people who got the chance to see him performing live at the Polyvalent Hall, in Cluj, on October 31st. He was the closing event of TiMAF (Transylvania International Music and Art Festival).

He performed for two hours straight and it was the best experience of my life. He started the concert with Face The Sun and closed it with one of my favourites, 1973. Of course he also sang his biggest hits like You're Beautiful or Goodbye My Lover, but also performed songs from his new album Moon Landing like Bonfire Hearts or Postcards (again, two of my favourites).

The public wasn't very perceptive in the beginning, but he made everybody go "mad" when he crow surfed. Everyone was running towards the stage and when he landed on his feet people were clapping and screaming. By the time the concert ended, nobody was sitting down. They were all singing and dancing.

Thank you, James Blunt for the wonderful experience! Thank you, TiMAF for the opportunity!




Alex. D

A massive crush and my concern about life.

On Wednesday I went out, in a club, with my friends. We had a great time. We drank. We danced. We laughed. I even met a guy. He seemed quite great. I mean, he had a sexy beard, amazing green eyes and a great smile. We danced. (He's a great dancer too). We even kissed a little. (Amazing kisser btw) He asked for my phone number. I gave it to him. (I think it's kind of obvious by now that I have a massive crush on this guy.) The next morning, he messaged and we talked for a little bit. Then, all of a sudden, he stopped texting me. Of course, I tried to keep the conversation alive, but at some point I ran out of subjects too...

I feel kind of disappointed now. I mean, I haven't liked someone this much in a loooong long time... Funnily enough, this keeps happening to me... I like someone and they don't like me back. Why is that?

Dear Life,


Why do you keep doing this to me?


Sincerely,

A disappointed human being.



Alex D.

Top 5 comedy shows you HAVE to watch

As an addicted to tv shows, I thought it was about time to make a post about my favourite comedies. Who doesn't love a good tv show that makes you smile and even feel better about yourself? So here are my top 5 comedies you should DEFINITELY watch.



The Office

The Office wants to be a "documentary" that revolves around the lives of the employees of a paper company called Dunder Mifflin. Now, I know what you may think... What's so interesting about some employees from a paper company? Belive me, it's not only interesting, but also incredibily funny. It has everything: comedy, drama, romance. You will laugh endlessly and get so attached to the characters that you'll feel the feels whenever they feel the feels.

I feel the feels just thinking about it...




Friends

I know, I know.. Who hasn't seen Friends and who doesn't love it, but let's be serious what kind of comedy top this would be without Friends included??




Miranda

Now this one is a British one and trust me is FANTASTIC! Miranda is this 6 ft. something of a  woman that is socially awkward. She lives alone, but is pressured by her mother to find a man and a proper job. She enjoys life, no matter how awkward it might gets and believe me..her life gets awkward constantly.





How I Met Your Mother

I loved everything about this show, except the finale. I mean, we endure 9 seasons of waiting for Ted to meet the mother and when he finally does they take her away. But nonetheless, you had to love Barney and his awesomeness and Lilly and Marshall and their awesomeness.




And last but not least...

Parks and Recreation

This one has the same basic idea as The Office. It's supposed to be a documentary about the Parks Department in Pawnee, Indiana, its employees and their adventures. The main character of the show is Leslie Knope, a perky woman, with big dreams that wants what's best for her city. Oh, and she loves waffles.





There are others tv comedies I enjoy watching, like Modern Family, New Girl or Hot In Cleveland and they're good, but I don't know, it's like I have a special connection with these five.




Alex D.

My favourite youtubers (Part 1)

At first I wanted to choose only five youtubers to talk about, but it's hard to choose because I follow so many great people that couldn't possibly leave out so I decided to divide them into different parts.

So here's my first part:



1. Blimey Cow ( https://www.youtube.com/user/blimeycow )

Their content is entertaining, interesting and talks about important topics in a funny and open-minding way. They want to "inspire laughter, community, and great conversation, while encouraging critical thought on important topics."  and personally, I think they're doing a great job!!





2. PsychoSoprano/Colleen Ballinger ( https://www.youtube.com/user/PsychoSoprano )

Better known as MirandaSings, Colleen is a talented and genuinely nice person that always puts a smile on your face. So if you ever feel sad check her videos and I guarantee you, you will feel better.




3.JoshuaDTv ( https://www.youtube.com/user/JoshuaDTV )

Another funny and talented human being. Oh, also he is Colleen's fiance. They're perfect for each other. Just sayin'.  Go check him out!!!




4.IISuperwomanII ( https://www.youtube.com/user/IISuperwomanII )

I remember watching her first video. I was having a really bad day and I watched Girls on their period and it made laugh so hard!! Ever since, I can't get enough of her videos! Oh, but her videos are more than funny, they're also uplifting and meant to make you feel better about yourself. She is amazing!!





5.grav3yardgirl ( https://www.youtube.com/user/grav3yardgirl )

Honestly, I can't even remember when I started to watch her videos, but it was a looooong time ago! And just like with Superwoman's videos, I can't get enough!! She is funny, sassy and she seems like such a wonderful person! And I looove her craziness!!!





There you have it! Five of my favourite youtubers! And even though I haven't met them (yet), they all seem like genuinely nice people! Go check them out!

Alex D.

Shall I compare thee to a (rainy) summer's day??

I just love a good ol' rainy day. Especially in the summer. It's so comfy to take a break from the hot weather and stay in bed enjoying a hot cup of coffee or tea, reading a book, watching a film or listening to some good music. Aahhh, I just love that. It's like for a moment my life is worry-free.

Oohh, and that amazing smell of rain... You know what I mean. It's fresh, yet at the same time old, somewhat strange, yet so familiar. I've always wondered how can rain be two things at the same time. It can pour aggressively and make you feel so calm. It can be so loud and at the same time so quiet. I swear, there's nothing more beautiful...

Sometimes, I think, we don't appreciate rain enough... It gives us the opportunity to take a little break from all the craziness our life is and enjoy the tranquilty it offers... Even if just for a second...

Alex. D

Long time, no post...??

I know it's been a long time (6 months) since I posted something and honestly I don't know why. I think, maybe, because nothing interesting, or at least worth to be talked/written about, happened to me. Sorry!! I know this is not necessarily and excuse, but I wasn't really feeling like writing. But I am back now, I will do my best to post more and hopefully it will be interesting and enjoyable.

See you soon!!


Alex D.

Late night thoughts

If not all of us, at least some of us have this love/hate relationship with night.

I know I do. I always hate it how my mind is so alive during night. I have all this thoughts that don't let me sleep. I think about this and that, I plan to wake up in the morning and be a better person, I plan to do all these things and of course, it never happens. When I wake up in the morning it's all gone. I just get up live my crappy, miserable, boring live. And I hate that!

Why can't I just sleep? I just want to put my mind on the pillow at night, close my eyes and just fall asleep in that second. No thoughts.  No plans. No nothing. It's that too much to ask for?

Then maybe, just maybe, I'll wake up in the morning without feeling like I would rather just be sucked in by the bed and never be let go of. Maybe I'll wake up and actually enjoy my day for a chance.

Now, don't get me wrong. Having all these thoughts has its ups. I mean, it's great to look forward to something, even if it's just for a few minutes because by the time sun rises everything you thought about that night is left behind.

As I see it, I can hope on one of two things: 1. I may wake up one morning and actually remember those plans and stick with them, or 2. I may actually go to sleep at night without worrying about everything. And, honestly I would accept any of them.

But I wonder...will one of these things ever happen?

Alex D.

Are best friends real?

Am I the only one who has ever wondered if this 'best friend' thingy is real? I mean, you know how girls these days always talk about their 'bff', how they never let each other down, how they're always be there for each other...

Is this thing for real? I could never consider just one person as my 'best friend', because no one is the best. People will always have moments when they're going to disappoint you. Even your parents. Even you disappoint yourself. And, honestly, I think you can't just choose one person to be your only best friend. That's why I prefer to refer to someone as one of my closest friends. You are the only one who can be your best friend. Of course, there will be moments when you'll be disappointed with yourself, but being dissapointed with yourself it kind of hurts less than being dissapoined, or being let down by someone else...

I don't know I might be the only one who doesn't have a best friend. Maybe I'm just crazy. Even these days one of my closest friends (who I considered once my best friend) kind of disappointed me, so that was kind of a 'life slapping me' moment. That's why I decided to write this in the first place. That's why I decided to never consider someone my best friend again. 

Well maybe my soul mate will be my best friend..but until than I'll just stick with friends, and close friends. Never best friends...

Alex D.

When you're sad...

What do you do when you're sad? And I'm not talking about the sadness that you have when you can't buy something you really wanted to buy, or the sadness that you have when someone you wanted to happen, didn't. No. I'm talking about the sadness that it's eating you alive. The one that you know it's there and you can't do anything about it. What then?

You keep on living, hoping that maybe, just maybe, there will be rays of sun on your street too. You keep on fighting  and try to find a little bit of happiness in everything around you. At least that's what I'm telling myself and I'm trying to do every single day of my life. But, damn, it's so hard! There are days when things take a good turn and then bam!, the next day you're right back where you left. And you want to quit. You want to let the world to crumble on your shoulders. You want to close your eyes and listen to the silence. But then, hope comes along. And she makes you to keep going. She pushes you, to keep fighting for your dreams, for your life.

What I'm trying to say (to myself) is that no matter how hard life gets, no matter how bad you want to give up, don't do it! Keep on hoping! Keep on smiling! Every sunrise is a new beginning  and we have to live it and enjoy it. Because, in the end, what would life be without its ups and downs? How could we enjoy happiness when we don't know what sadness feels like?


Here's a song to go with this:

http://youtu.be/K7KMRBoqQUg


Alex D.

Maybe this time...

I tried having a blog before. Well, actually, I tried writing before. I couldn't do it. Maybe I was too lazy, maybe I wasn't ready, but I'm willing to try again. Maybe this time it'll be better. Maybe this time I'll manage to keep this blog running.

I really want to do this. Probably nobody will ever read my blog, but I'm not doing this for someone, I'm doing this for me. I want to prove myself that I can write. Now, I'm not saying that I'm a writer or that my writing is great, good.... I'm just saying that I can write. Everybody can write. They can write for themselves. To keep their memories alive. To have a journal, an online journal about their lives: thoughts, hopes, dreams. Whatever one wants to write about.

You know what they say: new year, new me. Well I want to make 2014 the year when I try to improve myself. The year when I find happiness. The year when I achieve goals. The year when I make at least some of my dreams come true. This year is all about ME enjoying LIFE!



                          
Source: PostSecret website (not sure though)



Alex D.