Late night thoughts

If not all of us, at least some of us have this love/hate relationship with night.

I know I do. I always hate it how my mind is so alive during night. I have all this thoughts that don't let me sleep. I think about this and that, I plan to wake up in the morning and be a better person, I plan to do all these things and of course, it never happens. When I wake up in the morning it's all gone. I just get up live my crappy, miserable, boring live. And I hate that!

Why can't I just sleep? I just want to put my mind on the pillow at night, close my eyes and just fall asleep in that second. No thoughts.  No plans. No nothing. It's that too much to ask for?

Then maybe, just maybe, I'll wake up in the morning without feeling like I would rather just be sucked in by the bed and never be let go of. Maybe I'll wake up and actually enjoy my day for a chance.

Now, don't get me wrong. Having all these thoughts has its ups. I mean, it's great to look forward to something, even if it's just for a few minutes because by the time sun rises everything you thought about that night is left behind.

As I see it, I can hope on one of two things: 1. I may wake up one morning and actually remember those plans and stick with them, or 2. I may actually go to sleep at night without worrying about everything. And, honestly I would accept any of them.

But I wonder...will one of these things ever happen?

Alex D.